This book has yet not been published in English, but it definitely should be. Oksanen’s third novel, however, Purge, has been published in English and it is my next purchase for sure.
It was really hard to read about Anna who suffered from bulimia. If I had read this a few years ago, it would have been thinspiration. But now it was like being haunted by a bad memory; all the rules, lies and feelings came back, so much of Anna was at some time me. But it is also a reminder of how far I have come and for that reason alone, I’m glad I read this book.
The Estonian part of the story is also a reason why I’m glad I have read it. It partially follows Anna’s mother from when she met Anna’s father and until Estonia’s independence. And it also goes further back than that, back to World War II. It is a beautiful portrait of the fear and absurdity in Soviet. And the attitude in the west towards people, and especially women, from the former Soviet. And it made me miss Finland and regret that I never learnt the language.
(This is without doubt the hardest and most personal post I have made and I have the urge to delete parts of it, but I’m trying to be brave.)